I didn’t have the spirit to tell you that I don’t want to see you. But I will, and I take the time to tell you so.
You won’t feel differently about me if you saw me today, and you won’t change how I feel about you- you’re being clingy.
I’m sorry that I don’t like you the way you like me. I am done with you, please understand.
You are using me as an escape, using me as a filler to distract you. To motivate you in doing more- seeking pleasure and soaking in fear.
You said: “I am not afraid”, because you are. “I don’t want to scare you”, because you are.
You have to figure out what you want, you can’t rely on me to make you happy. I can’t do the work for you, you will see if you care to look.
Maybe in time you can be around, but not today.